It's raining today. It's perfect.
I know I've been quiet on here for the last couple of weeks. God has really been dealing with me about some things and - well, I'll be honest. It hasn't been easy. I've been struggling.
Some of you who read this are good enough friends that you are going to want to call and find out what's going on. I appreciate that so much. But right now, I just need to know that you care without going into details about my struggle.
Because, honestly, it's hard to put into words. Have you ever been that way? Have you ever had burdens that reach so far down into your heart, you just don't have the words to explain?
All I know is that I need God now more than ever.
I've been leading a study called, "The Forgotten God" by Francis Chan. It's about the Holy Spirit, His purpose and influence in our lives. Last week we read this passage in Romans 8:26-27: " In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will."
And that's where I am. Groaning because words cannot express.
It's ok, though, you know? This time in my life - no matter how long it lasts - is showing me my need for God. And that's a good thing!
Finally . . . there's a song from Mercy Me called, "Bring the Rain." I've copied the lyrics to the chorus and verse two below. If you think of me today, pray this for me: whatever it takes to praise Him. Whatever it takes for my life to be His. Whatever it takes.
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I've missed you Jenn! I know exactly how you feel. I've been there before. There's a song I sing sometimes and a line of it says "when I'm in the lowest valley I can climb the highest hill". Hang in there! I will remember you in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your sweet comment on my blog. I hope you start feeling better, I know what you mean when you don't have the word's to explain exactly how you feel.
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